I think this bout of insomnia (yesterday and today) has to do with the new job I'm starting tomorrow. I sure would have loved to come in fresh and beautiful, but I think dark circles may be in vogue in the morning.
Last week was a big week. Actually the last two weeks. I had put in my official "return to work" letter at the Maples four weeks ago, as my maternity leave was coming to an end. Then my manager at the Langley Hospital, where I work casually on the psych unit, told me about a job with a program that does community based psychiatric care. Kind of like Public Health nursing with pychiatric patients. The posting closed 2 Fridays ago, and I found out about it on the Wednesday before. So on the 31st of January, I had an interview. Then I had to let the Maples know I was looking at another job, even though I had told them I was coming back and already had booked shifts. Then I found out I got the job. Then I had to tell my manager of the Maples I was quitting. The problem was, she tried so hard to find a way to accommodate me working in both places, either as a casual or even in my half-time line, that I had a hard time finally deciding to resign completely. It was surprisingly hard. My first nursing job. And they've been really good to me. I'm having all sorts of nostalgia. But it's definitely better for our family. This new job is also a half-time evening line, but it is not near the commute, and if I want to work more than .5 I can pick up extra shifts in this program or on the unit, which makes way more sense logistically. At the Maples if I pick up a day shift, sometimes I'm looking at upwards of 3 hours commuting!
Anyways, I start tomorrow, and I'm not really nervous about the job, but about working again, balancing work and family and schoolwork and other things I'm involved with. It's been a great year at "home." But at the same time, I'm itching to try something new. So now, it's off to bed...hopefully I'll fall right to sleep, and no more awakenings from my sick little boy Seth. He has the flu everyone in William of Orange and Cloverdale has right now or has had already, the long feverish respiratory one. Lyla had it last week for 5 days, but was not nearly as feverish as Seth. He's only had it for 3 days so far, so maybe he'll recover more quickly. A mom can hope, right? It makes it just slightly harder to go back to work. Good thing he'll be with his daddy all day, and that I know that Shaun will take everything in stride and take good care of him. Seth came out of bed at the exact same time I was giving up on sleep and coming out of bed to get some water and sit on the computer for a minute.
Hope everyone else is sleeping right now :)
Have a good night,
Brenda
